Honesty

• Sometimes I lay in bed for hours trying to get to sleep, but I can't because I have so much on my mind.
• Sometimes I feel so angry that I start shaking... and sometimes I don't even know why I'm angry.
• Sometimes I don't feel like serving my family.
• Occasionally I cry so hard that I throw up.
• Sometimes I wish people could be a little more understanding.
• Sometimes I feel like no one cares.
• Sometimes I wonder how God is going to use this for good.
• Sometimes I still imagine that this is all a dream, and when I wake up everything will be like it was 4 years ago.
• Sometimes I wish I didn't feel like I need to wait until everyone is asleep before I can finally cry.
• Sometimes the only thing I want is to feel my moms arms wrapped around me. For her to hold me.
• Oh wait, no. That's pretty much all the time.
• Sometimes I lose hope. 
• But, the Lord reminds me that, although I feel so alone, HE CARES FOR ME. Incredible. God loves me enough to allow me to go through difficult circumstances because HE KNOWS what is good for me. His plan is perfect. It's so hard to understand sometimes! 

Psalm 55:22

"Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; 

He will never let the righteous be shaken."